Squeaky floorboard announces my arrival startling
vaulted ceilings awake joyfully ringing back with my footsteps.
The sun streaming from the glass high above continues on undisturbed.
Dust motes continue their dance unobstructed. Uncontained sound rings on.
No, not just any abandoned house.
My life begins here. In this abandoned house of GOD.
Have you ever stirred something from scratch in the corners of your brain
that you thought had been long gone but they came back like a familiar memory?
You know, the brand new thought you’ve always had?
In this house, I lose everything I thought I knew about life.
Here I feel different. Hopeful. Transient dreams taking on new vibrance.
I shall find the Great Beyond. Transcend to something new.
We are here in the after-moments when you’ve asked so hard you’ve given up.
Forever leading you to the next clue that reveals all you’re searching for.
You are riddled with all of the ancient pains you repeat over and over again,
the ache in your chest is a reflection of that. Break away, try something daringly new.
Be a creator of your own curiosity. Turn your bones into matter not seen.
You have within you that which you want to become; grasp it.
Here I have come upon the one thing that will change my life forever: An open door.
The threshold between me and my desires seems infinitesimal. Too easy. Why now?
The door is not a door, but I can see the colors, secrecy betrayed by supersight.
Everything has a color painting my vision with layers of my own reality. I know.
Peeling wood paneling hides the way to everything I have ever wanted:
To escape reality.
Or so I hope.
It’s the time. Go straight through. Don’t look back.